Yes. I’m still going to church. I know its after Easter so this means the only person I am obligated to is me really. The kids like going and I like getting to have an hour of times once a week to sit and not have to manage any one. That’s as good of a reason as any right? Seriously, I do like my kid-free time.
I also see it like school and I have said this a few times. I take notes diligently. I think about what’s being said and I form my own thoughts about it. Some of the message is silly, some enraging, and some does speak to me. Yesterday for example, there was a part about fellowship. That is probably what I get out of church the most- fellowship. The pastor was talking about having people that you have a connection with because of the belief – but I don’t have those beliefs but I am still finding connections. It is weird and strained sometimes I think. Quite possibly that is just my feeling of it too. It does make one very self-conscious to know you are the odd man out – or in this case the outted atheist.
I am happy to have met the people I have met. If not for this challenge I would not have taken a social media acquaintance and turned her into a friend. I am not sure there would have been any reason to associate other than the quick comment or like on Facebook. One new friend alone has made this worth my time. (HI STEF!) |
There are other people I have met, though we don’t talk outside of church it is nice having people to chat with while I am there. I do not under estimate the power of adult conversation as a stay at home mom, especially one with preschool aged children at home. Dora the Explorer can only hold my attention for so many days straight.
So yes I am still going. Will I make it every Sunday? Maybe; maybe not, but I haven’t yet found a reason to say goodbye.