There are 2 Christian Radio stations that I have found locally that I have been listening to. I prefer the talk show based one since it has more talk radio and more religious music versus the “trying to be mainstream” Christian music station. I was listening to one of the local religious radio stations last Friday and the host said something that really moved me.
“He doesn’t want you to get in, He wants you to fit in.”
The host went on to talk about how at the Second Coming when Jesus comes you will get a new body, all your ailments will disappear, your body will be perfect, but your character is yours. Character is something that one needs to be growing right now because the character you have at the second coming will be your character for eternity. You get a new perfect body and hopefully your character is worthy of it, but I am not worried about my Character. I am concerned with not being an outsider.
I don’t fit in. I won’t fit in. I have been trying to figure out how to address this for a month and every time I start to write it just doesn’t come out right but now I think I finally have the right words.
I don’t see how, even if I decided there was a God, would I ever fit in?
I do not believe that life begins at conception. I support the right to have a abortion if a woman wants for whatever reason she wants only because I support the rights of all people, young and old to make their own decisions for their own body. I support gays; I support them in getting married or civil unions or whatever the government wants to call it. I don’t think they are bad people and I don’t think they are doing anything wrong just because they love another with the same sex chromosomes as them. I believe in evolution. I do not believe that the earth is just 6000 years old or that dinosaurs were just made up by atheist scientists to fool the masses into disbelieving in God. (OK I’m not sure how many christians believe the 6000 year old Earth and Dino thing but really they come out in droves on the internet).
I know that America is not a Christian Nation built on Christian beliefs and even if we were? We were also a nation of people that at that time believed we could own other people. Money didn’t have “In God We Trust” on it til the 50’s same with the Pledge of Allegiance; it did not say “One nation under God until then either. Those changes were brought on by the fear of communism and Cold War. (I am still not sure what one had to do with the other though- I should probably research that.) I don’t believe that there should be prayer in school, not for Muslims, not for Mormons, not for Hindus, not for Catholics and not for Christians. I think that sex education, though primarily the responsibility of the parents, should be taught in schools and that includes teaching about prevention not just abstinence.
It seems that my beliefs on social issues do not align with the bible or with the majority of the Christian populous. I think that is must be ridiculously hard to be a Scientist, a Gay or Pro-Choice and still believe in a God that apparently doesn’t think you fit in. I wouldn’t fit in and I don’t see myself changing my beliefs on social issues and from a few of the responses I can tell that though a few other Atheists that have become Christians haven’t changed their core social beliefs.
So even though I enjoy the learning aspect of church and I will still keep going because I do enjoy what I am learning; I still do not agree with most of it; I don’t fit in and I don’t see that changing.